narcissistic personality disorder

I just had a conversation with the father.

He told me he neither needs nor wants anything from me.

He told me to get out of his house.

I feel so alone. I feel like no one can understand to live with a parent suffering from narcissistic personality disorder (NPD). Do you know there is no treatment? That these people don't get better, but rather progressively worse as time passes?

I know the father is fully capable of cutting me out of his life for good. He stopped talking to his only brother when he was 17, no joke. People with NPD don't feel empathy like you and I do.

My dad needs help. Sometimes I get angry with God because I've prayed for him for so many years and he just keeps growing worse and worse. Maybe I should spend my time praying for myself, that I have the strength to get away from him and not need his approval.

The father doesn't love me. The father doesn't love anything but himself.

I would have been better off if I never knew the father.

He thinks because he financially supported me he should be my idol, I should stand before him in awe. And that he can kick me, he can tear me down and call me crazy and he can threaten to do whatever he pleases and I'll take it.

I have for so many years. I have been suffering for so long. I was thinking, God let this happen--but I realize that I did, that by staying and taking his verbal abuse and by believing in it that I gave the father power. God has probably been watching, waiting for the day I am brave enough to break free.

If you want to read about what my life is like, you can here: http://narcissistic-personality.suite101.com/article.cfm/parents_with_npd