I received so many beautiful texts and calls today.

I really am so damn lucky.

A friend of mine said: I hope you feel the love because it’s all around you.

I hope you know it’s little things like that that mean everything.

I’m so grateful. Thank you, God. Thank you for these 35 years. I am blessed. 

I wished for my momma’s health (all kinds) this year. And for my aunt and uncle’s—and that all of them know how much I love them this year because I show it better. And I wished for my colleagues’ safety and health also in addition to that of my family. And of course for Sammie’s well-being and happiness. It was many wishes to be honest. For me I wished that I start to see a therapist and get mentally healthy because I know right now I’m not. I need help. But I do know I have a lot of love and gratitude in this heart and I do have good things I can offer to this universe. 

I love you, God. Thank you. Please watch over mommy.