untying ribbons around grief

 I have music moods like most. At current I feel a big mood, something vast buy also enveloping and nearly overwhelming. Hozier.  Thank God ...

 Two words that resonate with grief for me: wail and howl.

 Today I'm listening to Sufjan Stevens and wishing for connection.  It's dumb to wish if I don't do anything about it. It's ...

  Feeling nothing in particular. Detached, floating above this mess that is my life.

  Fuck everyone.  the bird that I found outside today. my heart.  My life is residue dissolving bone with feathers poking through. Worms wri...

  The Olympics are over. I am so grateful to all of the athletes dor inspiring me.

 It's almost my 39th birthday. For this year my wish is to be a better version of myself to allow myself happiness, time outside, time w...