I'm going on a date. I cried after the shower briefly. The feeling of I might actually be meeting the person that I'll love until the day I die. It overwhelmed my heart. I don't know how to explain how I feel about this man. And while yes I have that fluttering in my chest, it's something deeper than that that feels like it could be the truest connection I've ever known. I also smoked a little. My heart was racing and I felt sick. I think it's just a lot to be feeling so much all at once. 

I do thank God that I feel this joyful. I wish everyone could experience this.