So I guess this is it: I'm lonely, and I'm not normal.

I'm never going to be dishonest with anyone. But how do I meet someone as I am? Like I love and hate NYC. I love the diversity. Diversity of person, of mind, of being. I might disagree but it turns me on. But the lack of natural beauty? The sheer number of humans? Terrifying. Turn the humans to dogs and I'm in heaven. And again I ask: what do I do with this? Why am I like this?