A lot of the time I feel so fucked up.

Like when I imagined things as a tiny kid this was not it. But I guess I never really idealised the future like other kids. I never saw myself with kids and a family. I wanted those things but I couldn't see them if that makes sense. I was never the girl imagining the Disney Princess life. I didn't really ever idealise things. I was like, well,arriahe looks shitty. Kids can be born a mess. 

I love what I do and I'm good at it. More than anything I miss Samson. Beyond that I don't know at this point. 

Am I odd?