I'm learning a lot.  I need to be a stronger communicator.  I'm learning about what I do and do not like, and about taking time for me.  I'm beating myself up less.  I'm trying to throw stuff out.  Trying being the operative word.  I'm starting out slowly, but it's going.  I'm learning that work isn't all.  That to be happy, I need to make time for myself and my personal life.  

It might seem like this vacation time hasn't been all that, but for me, it's been everything.  I've slept, I've been eating.  I can't remember the last time I've cried.  I've been talking to friends a lot.  The next step is family.  I'm trying harder with myself, and it feels weird but it feels good.  

I can't lie and say I'm not stressing over a bunch of things.  Money and Sammie and things I need to take care of in general.  Doctor's appointments and driver's licenses and annoying life shit.  But I'm taking each day as it comes.  And I'm grateful for them.